Hey,
Just a little update on what I've been up to and how I've been feeling.
Lastnight I saw mum when we took my brother back from here (dads). He really wanted to stay I think it was because I was staying and he wasn't. He had to go home though because he was going shopping with mum today. Anyway he went home, and then I came back here. It was a bit of an odd evening, I felt out of place because I wasn't 'supposed' to be here, normally I would have gone home. We watched a bit of television, and as the evening went on I felt a but more comfortable. It was strange because I hadn't felt out of place during the weekend, perhaps because it was normal for me to be down at the weekend, but as soon as my brother went home the feeling kind of took over.
I went to bed, and after making the decision to turn my alarm off completely and have a lie in, I settled down to go to sleep. I was thinking and came to the conclusion that I should not feel guilty for staying with my dad because if it was a problem he would have said no. It is my home as well as his and his girlfriends, so I made a promise to enjoy my time down here rather than worry if I am in the way. After deciding this today has been alot easier and I have been able to concentrate on doing things like homework. I managed to complete my practice maths paper and find my tube for DT,which is a little bit off my list.
This is my list for all the work I have to do this half term. After missing out on so much due to counselling or other meetings I have alot of work that needs to be caught up on and done, so I am trying to get as much done as possible this half term:
Maths
Exam paper
Revision notes
Statistics coursework
Algebra coursework
English
Inspector calls notes
Character profiles
Exam paper/questions
Health and Social Care
Portfolio work
Assignment work
Design Tech
Sort out folder
Find tube
French
Do question sheets
Practice speaking
ICT
Revision notes
I woke up this morning, well saying that this afternoon, at 10 to 1. Disgusting I know but what are the holidays for right? I obviously needed it because I wouldn't have slept right through, like I did. I went and saw my gran and grandad and did a few other little bits, and popped to the shop with dad.
Anyway the reason I am annoyed, I never knew you could suffer from hayfever this time of year, but yes you can. Over the weekend my nose was a bit blocked up and I had a bit of a sinus headache. I put it down just to a cold coming or something. But today its got worse, my nose wont stop running, my throat is tickly, I have been sneezing all day non stop. My headache is worse and my eyes keep streaming. So yeh...hayfever it sucks.
Tommorrows the big day, I haven't really let myself think about it to much because I know it will only work me up, whether I will sleep tonight I do not know. I am still scared, and trying to think up reasons that I can tell my mum incase they do put me on medication for my depression. But it will be over before I know it, thats what i keep telling myself theres no point working myself up about it, just get in say what I've got to say, then worry about the rest of it afterwards. So wish me luck! I will update when I have got back.
Bye for now. xxx
