I'm only human.

Hey,
Was on myspace and I found this on someones profile,

Take the good with the bad, Smile with the sad, Love what you got, And remember what you had. Always forgive, But never forget, Learn from your mistakes, But never regret. People change, Things go wrong, But just remember....Life Goes On!

It's so true- if only I could see it and perhaps be able to apply it to my life. If only's, there the only things that seem to fill my life and my head all the time at the moment. Unrealistic dreams, things that will never happen to anyone, let alone me.

Hey,
Well the last few days have been a bit of a build up, and last night I just needed to get a bit of it out. So here it is....

Ghosts

From deep within,
Ghosts haunt my mind,
The deep disturbing,
Thought provoking kind,

Floating around,
They take control,
Piece by piece,
Then as a whole,

Stripping me of dignity,
Deprieving me of my pride,
Behind smiles and laughter,
I can no longer hide,

These overpowering demons,
Often linger for days,
Draining all my energy,
Leaving me in a daze,

Confused I become,
Lost and unsure,
Love or hate,
Which do I feel more?

Its difficult to understand,
Its difficult to see,
But these ghosts have become,
A huge part of me,

Even though I hate them,
With all my might,
They provide a sanctuary,
During long restless nights,

As pathetic as it may sound,
Sometimes they help,
They help me to cope,
They are an easy way out,

For when these ghosts take over,
I am left vulnerable and numb,
I have to face up to reality,
And see what I have become,

The ghosts become my friends,
They help me get through,
But just simply living,
Is the hardest thing to do.