Hey,
I dont really know why I am posting, I'm kinda bored I guess.

I ended up having to work this morning, I offered last night because I had a funny feeling the normal cleaner wouldn't turn up..and she didn't so about 10.15 I got a phone call to go in and work. So I've been and done an hour and a half of cleaning which was ok, all money I suppose. But I am feeling really tired now, I had a lie in this morning only an extra hour or so but if I hadnt have had that I would be even tireder now!

I am at home now, got back from work about half an hour ago, not sure what I am going to do for the rest of the day. definetely going to go and get a cup of tea and a couple of chocolates, will do a few jobs on here and then do some revision I suppose. I've got to finshing writing up my french presentation onto cue cards so i can carry them around and practice them whenever I get the chance. I have no idea why I took French my memory is terrible as it is, and thats only with remembering things in english let alone in french! I know I am going to fail it, I have no confidence in it what so ever. I have been predicted a c/b which is ridiculous I cant understand a word of it! I can say my name, my age, when my birthday is, my hair colour, my eye colour, I have one brother, his name, his age, his brithday, his hair colour, his eye colour and a little bit about his hobbies that is no way going to get my through my speaking exam. Its causing me so much extra stress and worry that I just dont need, I could be spending that time on bumping my english, maths or science grades up instead or concentrating on other weaker subjects. But they wont let me drop it because of this stupid predcited grade. I am seriously going to get in there and have to just sit there quiet because I wont have a clue what to say! I've got a mock speaking exam after the holidays so I've got to revise so much when I could be revising something I enjoy, and that isnt just going to be a waste. Argh I hate french.

I have got to email this bloke, he came and did a session on confidence and stress the other day in school. He is basically a life coach for teenagers about to do their GCSE's but he also works in other areas. I got to have a quick chat with him on the day on my own, and he said I should email him so we can talk a bit more about things and hopefully make a plan as to what he can do to help me and what I can do to help myself. So I might do that in a minute.

I started reading a book lastnight 'The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nightime.' I had heard of it before and never really knew what it was about I thought it would be a bit childish, but its really good, its about a 15 year old boy who has aspergers syndrome, and he finds a dog dead, with a garden fork stabbed in him, he then begins a investigation to find out who murdered the dog. It is very funny and I can totally relate to it because I have a very good friend who is also my next door neighbour who has aspergers syndrome so it is not difficult to imagine or picture this boys behaviour.

I seriously need to make another to do list. So that will be my first task after I have had my cuppa and finished on here.

Today has been a good day so far, I havent stopped much to think about anything which is probably why I am feeling good. I dont know how to say it but I am also looking forward to or rather hopeful about tommorow and starting these tablets. Apart from feeling tired I feel good which is nice!

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