I'm only human.

Hey,
The person I spoke to today suggested I do some research on foods that contain serotonin so that when I do eat, I eat these types of food and can release some 'happy hormones'. So I have taken her advice and here is a list of 'happy' foods.

My Happy Foods List

-Bananas
-Walnuts
-Orange Juice
-Chocolate
-Strawberries
-Cherries
-Orange
-Mango
-Pineapple
-Hazelnuts
-Milk
-Chicken
-Kiwi
-Plum
-Tomato

Hey,
As I mentioned in the post I just did I am going to do some more posts mainly for myself but could also help others out there who are having the same or some simular problems as I am.

After researching over the internet and looking on forums I have come up with a distraction list for myself.

My Distraction List
1.Read?
2.Write?
3.Play with dog?
4.Walk dog?
5.Wash dog?
6.Groom dog?
7.Experiment with make up?
8.Experiment with new hair styles?
9.Make a CD?
10.Make a video?
11.Take some photos?
12.Name all photos?
13.Post photo's on deviant art?
14.Edit photos?
15.Play on photoshop?
16.Draw?
17.Do cross stitch?
18.Do a tapestry?
19.Do latch-hook cushion?
20.Make a bag?
21.Make a cushion?
22.Design a t-shirt?
23.Make a t-shirt?
24.Tidy room?
25.Sort CDs into alphabetical order?
26.Sort DVDs into alphabetical order?
27.Dig out an old book?
28.Make/ add to BOS?
29.Make a collage of photos?
30.Make a collage that represents you?
31.Write a poem?
32.Write in blog?
33.Make a collage for a friend?
34.Make a friendship bracelet for a friend?
35.Text a friend?
36.Phone a friend?
37.Do some oragami?
38.Write a letter?
39.Start a new project?
40.Do some schoolwork?
41.Make a time capsule?
42.Have a bath?
43.Have a shower?
44.Wash hair?
45.Do a wordsearch?
46.Do some sudoku?
47.Do a crossword?
48.Customize some clothes?
49.Write a song?
50.Read your horoscope?
51.Record your day in photos?
52.Play chess?
53.Play a card game?
54.Go for a walk?
55.Go for a swim?
56.Go for a run?
57.Go to the beach?
58.Go to some woods?
59.Go for a bike ride?
60.Watch a chick flick?
61.Watch a disney film?
62.Do a jigsaw puzzle?
63.Read a magazine?
64.Make some jewellery?
65.Make a scrapbook?
66.Add to scrap book?
67.Write a life list?
68.Add to a life list?
69.Write a to do list?
70.Do things from your to do list?
71.Learn about body language?
72.Look at peoples body language?
73.Go for a ride on motorbike?
74.Go visit a friend?
75.Meet up for a drink with a friend?
76.Take younger relatives for a walk to the park?
77.Visit a relative?
78.Go shopping? =]
79.Buy birthday presents?
80.Clean motorbike?
81.Make a candle?
82.Visit the library?
83.Return books to the library?
84.Watch the sunset?
85.Get up early and watch the sunrise?
86.Buy a mosaic kit?
87.Use the mosaic kit?
88.Research family history?
89.Take up a type of martial art?
90.Have a massage?
91.Book a hair appointment?
92.Go to a rock and roll dance class?
93.Go to a line dancing class?
94.Organise a night out?
95.Organise a day out?
96.Go to a theme park?

Hey,

After today I am feeling a bit more positive and I actually feel like I'm back on the road to recovery, its going to be lots of little steps but eventually they will get me somewhere. Its taken me about 3 weeks to get back in this frame of mind and I'm determined to keep it this way for as long as I can.

Something good happened today, it was small but it was good and I think it was a positive step in the right direction. I managed to eat something for lunch, it was only a few small handfuls of muesli, crunchy cereal stuff but I ate some of it, and I felt okay about it. I wasn't feeling guilty or anything, although I didn't feel as good about the achievement as I thought I would but at least I did it.

If the time ever comes where its hard to eat I know that if I really want to I can, because I did it today. Its a point which I can look back to and feel positive about.

This whole mood/feeling came from talking to someone, I had spoken to her the week before I went to the doctors, she is someone who kind of has first hand knowledge about eating disorders because her best friend had one whilst they were in school. I hadn't really told her about the mental side of it all but today I did. She gave me lots of advice, and kind of helped me make a plan and have a little bit of structure, she gave me ideas and things to go off and do and try.

One was to not spend so much time on the computer, she said it would be a good idea to only go on the computer to do something specific rather than just go on whatever I fancy. Have a purpose and an aim. Because although computers stimulate the brain they can sometimes be quite negative.

So she suggested trying to do more exercise and perhaps picking up a few new hobbies. I have been using a great website lately www.recoveryourlife.com and there are loads of ideas and things on there to help aid recovery.

I am going to do a few posts on here, so that the information I need is here whenever I want/need it and I can come back to it whenever I want to.

So thats the latest update and its nice to have something positive to say for a change. I'm actually smiling about little things that make me happy, maybe there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I may have to turn back and get new batteries for my torch every now and then but the light is always there, I just need to widen my eyes and look out for it.

=]

xx